7 June 1993(old)
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today is also the day .. i felt tears for the first time .. i cant breathe .

dont they understand ? badminton is the only way for me to let out stress ?! baka .. i go out . not play but STUDY ! why cant they understand just this once ?! i only can study at night . where it is peaceful .. why cant they understand that i got my own personal problems to solve too ?! scold me for just a bloody piece of chemistry test .. cant they just understand that my own way of studying is different ?! yes . my grades are dropping so ? i cant go to my own poly course .. so ? we study for just one damn paper ! i know , i am wrong .. wrong to not study first then play . but isnt i cant stand the stress ! too much things happen ! do i want it this way ?! no ! compare with my cousin that she can plan and manage her time properly .. so ? do i care ?! i hate tuitions ! i hate .. dying is what I felt now ! why ?! cry cry cry .. that’s all I know in what I can do . CRY ! hopeless . I want to get out of this world in this life ! i want to scream ! I want to leave this world . I cant stand it anymore ! why do they like to compare , and scold me for comparing ?! ya ya . I am to be blame for everything . In what I do . everything I do is wrong .. not correct at all . they don’t even understand me . not at all . ya right scold me because they care .. SCOLD ME , LECTURE ME ! go ahead ! blame everything to me ! I am not working towards the goals I set ! I don’t care ! they don’t even ask me what happen in school , hows yr day .. and when they know I am upset , they don’t even ask me what happen .. maybe I will say out .. maybe I wont . you know I am not the one who will exactly pour all my feelings out ! you know I am not the one who will find u to talk about my problems . why ?! .. so what this is the last year for me in secondary school ?! so what ? I don’t feel like doing anything tml . I want to jump down from my block of flats . end this misery . I cant deal with stress . I just cant ! .. don’t force me to study if I don’t want to . why are ur words always so hurtful ? shoot me right in the heart . why ?! you have been saying the repeated things about me that if I am not on this earth will be good right ? no worries for you .. nothing at all . nothing .. empty .. why now ?! .. ya right u are not scolding me .. u are lecturing me .. I used the computer so late and u cant sleep . sleep larh . no one is forcing you .. don’t have to wait for me and in the end blame me for making u not to have enough sleep . and i am using the computer to study .. STUDY . get it ? i am just tired . tired of everything . nothing helps ..

tears lasted long . and flows down like a river .. I dont know how to stop .. thanks a lot .. fragile .. as good as dead ..

i shouldn't be feeling so horrible . but ..